First, I would like to point out how many of these people, matches, "family members" wouldn't even respond to my email! Now, I understand, some people may have changed their email addresses, or may just not want to get involved with some random woman looking for a birth father and opening up a whole big can of worms in their own families, but isn't it common courtesy, we are cousins after all! Most of my matches were 2nd-4th cousin range or 3rd-5th, not super helpful. I did have one "immediate" match though, and I almost peed myself when I saw it. She was listed as a possible half sibling, aunt, or grandparent. I compared matches we had in common thinking that I may have just found a long lost aunt, my father's sister. I sent her an email, she still hasn't responded, either she doesn't use that email address of she was as freaked out as I was. I emailed people we had in common and one very nice lady did respond. We determined we are related on my maternal grandfather's side of the family....wait....hold up.....maternal grandfather....possible aunt, oh yes, my grandfather it would appear had a "love" child. To solidify this possibility my aunt (mother's sister) has also done the test and this woman comes back as a sibling for her. That sure makes things interesting. As of this moment I am unsure how to proceed with that information. My aunt doesn't think we should do anything, she thinks it would just cause too much drama. I on the other hand think I should try reaching out again. Maybe she signed up and did the DNA test looking for her father, I know how that feels. I think I found her on Facebook, but how do you send a message like that? I have temporarily put that on the back burner while I ponder my next move.
Having my aunt do the test was very helpful, or somewhat helpful, I was able to weed out matches we have in common and it has helped me narrow down people who are most likely related to me on my father's side. I had emailed some of these people the first time around, and got very little information. I am considering trying again to see what information I might be able pry out of them. I have discovered I am most likely of a cajun descent on my father's side. Seeing matches, knowing I am just an email away from people who share the same dna as my father is very emotional, and exciting, and confusing, and sad all at the same time. Part of my was thinking, or hoping rather, that just one of them would reach out with open arms and help, really help me. No one has done that yet. What I do know is that of the 3 possible men who I thought my bio dad could be, none of them were cajun that I know of, that doesn't mean much, I don't know anything about any of them really, but that could also mean there is a 4th man out there. I don't know who he could be, and to be completely honest, in a way that up until this second I haven't been, I can't say what the circumstances surrounding my conception was. My mother, for all intent and purpose was a 17 year old runaway, was it a one night stand? Was it a guy she had been interested in? Was I a product of rape? I don't know the answer, and she isn't saying. No matter what it was, I have a right to know, and I will do everything in my power to find out.
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